someday i want this. someday i will have this. i'm not saying a guy has to buy me the world, i just want to know how it feels to be loved to the ends of the earth and back. i had that once and it was the greatest feeling i've ever felt. but who knows, maybe you only get it once. you get one big love and that's your only chance. i know i'm capable of loving someone like that again but i don't know if i'll get lucky and have someone have those same feelings for me.
i'm content with being single right now. i don't think it'd even be smart for me to be with someone right now. i'm moving this summer. i like being alone right now actually. i like a lot of alone time. i'm not so sure that i'd even be a good girlfriend right now. i'm too selfish and i like to have my big bed to myself. i like waking up alone. i guess when i say it like that it sounds kind of bad but i don't think it really is when you think about it. at least i'm not lonely, that's the worst feeling in the world.
i'm so happy to be back at the point to where i'm completely content being alone. i don't need a guy to make me happy. it's always nice but not necessary. i'm to the point where i've been meeting lots of really nice/cute dudes that could potentially be great boyfriends but i lose interest after a week or two. that sounds so snotty. i don't want to be with someone that i have hot and cold feelings for, that's a waste of their time and mine. i did that for 5 months last year and it was the worst. i feel like i lived someone else's for half the year. not doing that again, no siree. i definitely learned my lesson there. i don't really know where this is going...just had relationships on my mind after a recent conversation with a friend about love.
xo
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