Friday, May 16, 2008

this is why i love my job

one of my favorite residents at the nursing home left me this note on the back of his menu:



XOXO

a bunch of random thoughts...

this week was pretty sweet, it went by super fast.

i've been riding my bike a bunch and i've already lost a few pounds, right on.

maddox got fixed yesterday. i couldn't go pick him up because i was working thad's show last night so my mom went and got him. i guess he was freaking out on the drugs once he woke up from the surgery and even the vet had said that he's never seen a kitten be like that. kind of scary. i felt so bad when i came home. he was waiting in my bed for me and he's been really groggy ever since. when i woke up this morning he had thrown up but he finally got up and started moving around more and drank some water so at least he's feeling a little better.

my brother called home last night while i was out (of course!) and my mom said that he's really homesick. i've had a sick to my stomach feeling since i heard that. he's sounded great the last few months that he's called home. i just want him back here safe. i miss him so much. and it kills me to hear that he's so homesick right now because he won't be home until the holidays (we hope). ugh, fuck this war. i'm about to go buy him a bunch of stuff and put a care package together for him with my mom.

my sister's wedding is 3 months from today and it's going to be a happy and sad day for all of us. my brother and sister and i are pretty close and it's going to hurt us all when that day comes that chewy can't be there. i know how much it bothers chewy that he can't be there. and it makes me sad because we have always talked about how much fun we'd have at their wedding with our big family.

i've been working as much as i can to be able to pay for all the wedding expenses. i'm anxiously awaiting my stimulus check so i can put it down on a car so hopefully that will be soon. i have already bought my dress and shoes for the wedding but i still have to pay for the rest of the limo, put down money on the bridal shower and the bachelorette party, buy a dress for the bridal shower, buy a dress for the bachelorette party and buy gifts for the bridal shower and the wedding. ahhh fuck it, i'm getting married in vegas. it's ridiculous how much money put into weddings when more than half of them just end up in divorces. i have no faith in marriage these days, every one around me is splitting up.

i want a summer fling. i don't want a boyfriend. i just wanna have fun and occasionally do cute shit with a dude. is that so much to ask for?

Saturday, May 3, 2008

I was a lover before this war

I really really really really miss my brother. Fuck.